My little heart says.."You are my second mom".. I have known this person for maybe a year. Many things have been happen between us. Sad, angry, happy and lots more.  Her name will be secret. I wish if she know what i want to say to her. Like i love you and always...

I always think that she is my second mom. her advice is like a mother to a daughter. When i am down she will know what to do to make me happy. But i always try to prevent that from happening. but things always happen unexpectedly.

Dear XXXXXX,

hear what i want to say to you. thank you for everything that you have done to me. thank you for your love.
Did you know that..there is something that you have and does not in my mother.
You will always say  "i love you" to me. My mother never say that. Maybe because i have grow up.
You are the greatest thing that i could have.

Thank you for everything..i love you very much..

You will always be in my heart always....

"What a smart thinking you have"

Well for some part of me is angry and other part is still thinking. This "madness" does not cause by familly or friends..it's come from teacher. Okay how it happen is like this. Today we were doing some math exercises given by the teacher. It was very hard. Well my friend and i were about to ask the teacher when the teacher came to us.

But i just cant believe that the teacher just give guide to answer that question to my friend. I am try to be involve but the teacher just ignoring me.  So when ii realize that i have no mood to answer that question. that time im just calm my self down and keep to myself.

After the teacher gone, i told my friend that i do the math work later and i dont want to be touch.

After all that happen, i kept question myself that what have i done wrong until the teacher done that to me.
I think i remember why. Maybe he done that to me because when he ask me whether i go to additional class or not for the math subject..i answered no. And i told him that i study that math with my uncle who also the math teacher but in better school. I think he jealous of that.

I am not sure if i can stand that.....for long.
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This is something that i dont experience it everyday. For common we always hear  that girls love boys and boys love girls. But this is absolutely insane. How could you be fall in love with the same kind? I mean this is absolutely insane.

Let me represent you the character.  The name is(not real name). This girl is new student in my school for this year. But she does not the same class with me. How can i find out her like that...well it's all from my twin sister. They are both in the same class. My sister told me that she is not that friendly. She only friend with the girl that is beautiful.

She also told my sister that she have 80 friends back at her old place. She call herself playgirl and playboy. I am not sure what does that suppose to mean. But i think that is something to do with her background. Another thing is she said that a lot of people in some kind of a social web admire her. I am not sure what it is but i think it is called myspace.

SIgn of her like girls is this:

She always follow behind wherever my sister's friend went. Well she is beautiful maybe...i dont know. Okay the thing is sometimes she will fake to be sick to get attention from her. Well this friend is by name Akmal(not real name) is care about others problem. Well because her ambition is based by helping people.

And for like everyday she did that. She also like copying others homework for eveytime and everyday. I dont understand what is her problem. Why she cant do  her homework but why she can personalize her myspace until people like her..HUH..so freaky and crazy..

I just hope that this thing is not going to be a bigger case.... 

It was in the middle of night, i want to wash my hands in the kitchen. As i approach to the sink i saw a little creepy and ugly creature. My souls were feel cold. My heart wanted to burst out. "A cockroach"!!...my tiny hearts says inside. It is as big as an adult thumb..But i didnt scream.If i scream it would make me a maniac person in the middle of the night to scream. So i just ran to my sister and told her evrerything.  I thought she would be a chicken like me but she didnt instead she told me to grab a broom while she pick up a cockroach's kill spray. After getting ourselves ready we went into the battle zone. As we approach to the sink..the cockroach crawl into the hole of carbinet. This make our work tough. So we make a plan. Our plan is       she with the spray ready and stand infront of the cabinet while me ready to open the cabinet door. So after everythings all set we contribute the plan. When i open the cabinet door, the cockroach didnt appear anywhere.  we think that the cockroach might he hide. So i knock the cabinet with the broom. The cockroach still not appear.  So we give up. As i closed the cabinet door,  my sister scream "COCKROACH AT THE CABINET DOOR !!!"  Instanly i ran and scream loudly. The weird thing is my sister didnt spray the cockroach instead scream without nonsense. So BYE BYE to our plan. Our scream was so loud that our mother woke up from sleep and rushed to the scene. My mother was very shocked of the screaming and seek our explanation why we do that. Well we said cockroach and started to laugh with ourselves after the incidence. I ask my sister why she scream. She answered. " The cockroach was very near your leg. I'm just scared that it will jump on your legs. So i scream to save you"..

A few minutes later we continue our mission.  The cockroach crawl back inside. I think it flee because of our loud voices. So i knock again with a broom. I moved things inside the cabinet with a broom. And then suddely something jump out. So we scream again. it is not a cockroach but a small black lizard. And after that we give up and the mission failed..Well until now i dont know where the cockroach goes. but i hope it does not make us scream again....